This story ends with me tearfully hugging my husband. But I will get to that here in a minute.
Mark tends to cluster feed on weekends when he is home with us all day. That makes sense since on weekdays I only feed him once in the morning from the source before going to daycare (I’m the source) and once, maybe twice, in the evening from the source before he goes to bed between 6-7 p.m. The rest of the time he bottle feeds pumped breast milk. So weekends it’s like he’s spoiled being around me where he’s able to feed from me anytime he wants.
Last night was like any other Sunday evening since having Mark. Lots of laundry, some cleaning, less organizing than we should’ve done, and plenty of baby cuddles. By the time 6 o’clock rolled around little man had eaten almost every hour for the past few hours. Thankfully in between feeds Mark is happy to lay on our bed with us, or in his rocker. He’s a very content baby and enjoys his alone time just staring at the white walls.
Not last night though. As he was laying in his little bassinet, which I was sitting beside trying to make him smile, out of nowhere he starts wailing.
And not the “I’m hungry give me a boob” wail, the “someone is hurting me and I’m in so much pain” kind of wail.
Without actually knowing who "they" are, I hear "they" say breast is best.
Well, almost 12 weeks in I call BS!!
Breast is not best. I repeat, as I stand shouting from a mountain top, BREAST.IS.NOT.BEST!!!
But I can tell you, as unequivocally as possible, what breast is.
Breast is hard.
Breast is stressful.
Breast is emotional.
Breast is exhausting.
Breast gives you anxiety.
Breast is time consuming.
Breast is (or can be) painful.
Breast makes you question your reasons. Daily.
Breast is getting up at 4 a.m. to pump to have adequate milk for the day.
Breast is starting petty arguments with your husband because of all of the above.
Hi there! I'm Kara, of taking KARA myself! I've dabbled in blogging off and on for a while now. Mostly off. But I'm trying to change that and make a dent in this side of the world wide web. Enjoy!